if life were as sweet as it was made out to be
everyone should have diabetes.
but people have high blood pressure, high colesterol, cancer, cholera, etc.
so i guess life isn't just only sweet, it's dangerous, bitter, fatty, incoherent and lastly, shitty.
oh le sigh.
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what happened to my joy and what happened to my simple pleasures.
i've grown to be complicated and complex that i've forgotten to just live and let live.
everything i want and i seemingly need, seems to be .. expensive. or.. unaffordable. or too ideal. is there such a thing as too ideal, even?
i'm a girl.
not really a woman.
so i guess young lady.
sometimes i feel i deserve more than just a fleeting image.
more than just a maybe, and definitely more than just an idea.
i need concrete, solid evidence, like a psychological study needs samples.
but a feeling is just a feeling. reality is reality.
and it is more likely and truthful that i DON'T deserve anything i feel i deserve.
because i'm saved by grace and mercy, not by right or allocation.
MERCY.
that's a word i need to digest and need to have
GRACE.
that's a word i need to practice and need to show.
i've slidden so far back :(
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