As I grow older, I feel an increasing need to keep the good friends I have.
But... Less and less interest in making new ones (not very good).
Half way through the year, I realised I broke up with a few friends, and have made none the new.
It's not a good way to make this year "GOOD".
They say (they means I hahah), a good way to evaluate your social life is to see if there would be anyone you could gladly (and easily!) pick to be your best man/bridesmaid. Not out of obligation or desperation, but out of honour, happiness and pride.
Ashamed to admit, just 2 years ago. I had nobody in mind.
Or rather, nobody I knew who would do me that honour.
It's not easy meeting new people/putting yourself out there. After all, in all honesty, what can other people offer you at this day and age? I no longer yearn to fit into society because well, I'm 23-- and I know what I want, or what I don't want, what I like and what I dislike. These days, it's a lot of "well if you don't like me, then... too bad?" attitude going round my aura.
Not good. Too negative.
So in addition to Project Happy, I think I will be needing to add a little bit more... Something like a.. subsidiary of the project. Uhm, it is at the end of the day to get me happier? Or.. help me feel happier? Okay, whatever.
I will make 5 NEW! friends this year!
5 new people that I will be able to hang out with.
It shall be called....
Project Kaki Lang.
D also has a somewhat similar project going on. His is called Project EntouragE. Yes with capital E. I don't know why also, don't ask me.
I'm not a very nice person all the time, so it will be quite tough. But I think it's absolutely necessary. Otherwise.. my friend-circle is going to keep shrinking and shrinking! :( And I will be all alone and die a lonely person with 99 cats (omg I hate cats!!), and a dusty old house because I also hate cleaning.
Ugh, to be honest, I also kinda hate making new friends.
Mostly because of the rejection I will inevitably face.
BUT I WILL BE BRAVE!!!