TONIGHT!

:S
Acoustic Night!
8pm at the SU Small Bar.





roar :(
my camera no more battery so i don't think i'll take a video :\
but i need to practice now so i'll tell ya'll about it later :D

scared :S
booooooooooo.

Jelly!

my jello hehehe
if you're wondering.
IF.
i am too lazy to fix the fading word thingy overlap video blah blah

see my jello wobble!
ho ho ho :D

EMO.

worthless loh
useless loh
fat loh
pretencious loh
no cow sense loh
frog loh
no skill loh
perasan loh
LOA loh
no dress sense loh
stupid loh
bitter loh

DeeeeDahhhhhDoooooo.

dee dah doo.
my jelly wobbles :)
damn cute.
i took video.
will post it tmrw.

the most exciting thing that happened to me today was when chingyee and melissa said yes when i asked them if they could teman me to go tesco.

my life is so ehsaiting! :D

Didn't Win :-(

i am jinxed :(
i found THE dress of (my) dreams last night on ebay for a very low price of xx.xx pounds (see 2 digit only), but i committed not to shop :(

i bid it JUST so that the hours will last longer (well apparently it doesn't, i'm such a newbie), but i just got the email saying that i didn't win it. and the selling price (at the end) was still in a very affordable range.

THE dress of (my) dreams ok!!!!!!
*cry*

sigh.
better luck next time i guess :\
boo :(


[edit]
new flatmate moved into the room opposite me.
a new guy from kenya. my cypriot flatmate would be delighted to have another male in the vicinity! hehe :)

but it also means i have to ALWAYS remember to lock my door. i have SUCH a clumsy habit of forgetting to do so when i sleep and so i sleep with an unlocked door through the night. great. it's a good thing to be reminded that there's a guy staying opposite me. maybe i'll get a little more urgency in locking my door.

shit. he smokes weed
*sprays with intoxicating lavender air freshener that doesn't smell like lavender*
**psssssssssssssssssssssssttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*
-----

don't like you you and you
not elaborating here because someone will perasan.
and someone means a few ppl.

thts the thing about publicity.
kenot simply talk
but at least can simply think.

MELISSA ONG I PING

keshia (: says (12:46 AM):
i'm still feeling lazy hee hee

║♥Meli§sa♥║ says (12:46 AM):
hehehe me too!! haven't done anything besides cooking n cleaning room

keshia (: says (12:47 AM):
my room needs hoovering but my back still a bit sore so need to wait a while hehehe

║♥Meli§sa♥║ says (12:47 AM):
hahaha need my help not!

keshia (: says (12:47 AM):
to hoover?? hahaha no lah! its okay lah! ahha wait a while more for my back to be better then can already one! hahaha why you so nice one hahaha offer to help with hoovering omg

wah tell me where to find such a nice and loving friend mmm?
happy birthday MY darling! :D
daniel don jealous :)

may you be blessed with all things great and joyful
as you turn 21 this year!
BIG GIRL already hor!
have to learn to MAKE DECISIONS hor!
heheheh.. kidding nia :)

blessed brithday!!!! :)

Dear Ma,

happy birthday :)
i love you :)

I Love Sleep

although i'm quite ugly when i do :S
gniiiiiiiiite :)

Winter 07- Spring 08

it's coming :)
i can feel it :)

Doo Doo Doo

S • C • O • R • P • I • O: The Freak in Bed
Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! AMAZING IN BED..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna fuck with...u might end up crying... The most irresistible. Rare 2 find. Funny. Talkative. Erotic. Smart. Loves sports. Gets what he/she wants. Loves to be in a relationship.


V • I • R • G • O: The Lover
Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.Great kisser.

L • I • B • R • A • : The B*tch
Can be mean sometimes, and will Probably knock your ass out, if crossed the wrong way!! EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever....Romantic. Caring.


A • R • I • E • S: The Sexiest
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to fuck with. Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships.=) Addictive. Loud. best in bed.


A • Q • U • A • R • I • U • S: the strongest
Trustworthy. Sexy. professional kissers. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic and funny. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Loves music. Not a Fighter, But will Knock the crap out of u. The best and biggest freak in bed! Strong. Considered to be a "Spartan." The most intelligent. falls in love too easily. Doesn't show it but is easy to hurt.


G • E • M • I • N • I: passionate
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the fuck out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING.Horny. Freak in Bed. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.


L • E • O: wild in bed
Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at a lot. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Loyal.Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Great when found.


C • A • N • C • E • R: Most Amazing Kisser
Very high sex appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 1


P • I • S • C • E • S: The Piece of ass
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high SEX appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.


C • A • P • R • I • C • O • R • N: THE BEST IN BED
Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible, awesome kisser.gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in BED. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in sports.Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget. Smart.


T • A • U • R • U • S: The sex addict
Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long relationships Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as ...u no!..... Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as ......... Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to fuck with. Are the most sexiest people on earth!


S • A • G • I • T • T • A • R • I • U • S. The Sexy one
Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Most caring person you will ever meet! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with you might end up crying.



of course, this is only fictional :p
oh and also from facebook.
so it's probably not true!

x

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHRING.

ppl don't update blogs as often as i hope they would.
then i get bored.
ehahahhaha. wah i make it sound like it's their fault.


well it's mine for being so lifeless and spending all my time on.. BLOGS haha.
pathetic much -,-

doo doo doo
i have like a tag that i'm supposed to do from jiameei. buuuut no opportunity yet!
but soon ok! soon! promise :)

ps: my Cypriot flatmate is singing at the TOP of his lungs to an emo song i don't know the title to. so funny la hee hee :D

roar : (

i thought i would FINALLY be able to fix my sleeping habits.
but i just HAD to wake up at 9pm from a sleep that i thought would last from 6pm

now i'm kinda wide awake.
now it's really noisy outside because half time's just out.
now i have nothing to do after tagging 345789123746 people in the few pics i have.

i realised all my old pics were in the PC!
sigh. need to ask kenny to send it to me.

i miss kenny la :(
i want him here now :(


ps: is today chap gor mei?? hm!

BLOOD

... out of my nose! :S

totally my fault cos i've been eating toast all the time (when yr bread is fridged, you're gonna have to toast it to eat it whaaaaaaaaaaaat)... and also boiling a very heaty chinese herbal soup :S and also eating digestive biscuits which are ALSO heaty :S and not to mention my dinner on monday was a whole personal pan pizza..
sure la nose bleed (i think).

anybody have home remedies for heatiness?
don't tell me cucumber ah. takkan i ONLY eat cucumber meh!

sigh :(
ice cream? :D

xx

Inside Me.

[edit]
took off all the pictures cos i cannot tahan seeing myself in SUCH a big picture!
sorry for putting YOU through this HAR HAR :D



flashing in the darkness
love rebounding off the walls
roar the instinct that is called
feeding on an empty carcass
ciggies and stout is the core
trotting like you own it
and fasten like you're gonna soar


because rainbows and butterflies are just my part-time job




ok my narcissism is overfed and obese already.
xx

OVAH.

yay exam over :p

i are retard

stress giler. so susah. stupid paper. ask all kinds of irrelevant questions like "who adopted the feral child". pffbt. duh i mean we all studied main ideas and concepts and THEORIES. not WHO adopted a wolf child! what does that have to do with anything!

why like that!
tsk -.-

anyway,
i'm happier now :)
don't worry k?




esther and shane just flew off to aus!
i hope to dear ... heh, well. i hope esther won't bully shane! ehehahahah
or.. shane won't prank esther...
whichever :)

have a good time there k.
shane- be good!
esther- be good!

k lah sleepy liao. dowan talk so much :)
lovelove!
<3

xx

DIFFICULT.

things are just difficult.
i'm having such a difficult time now.
i'm in a difficult situation.
i'm think life is difficult.
i think he is difficult.
i AM difficult.
i don't think it's actually that difficult.
it just seems difficult.
but it doesn't have to be difficult.

so why does it have to be so difficult then!
anyhow. it's been 1.5 years of total ups and downs..
love the ups more than the downs, definitely.
love the person more than the personality sometimes :)

mmf.

Elegant.

simply.

Talking To Myself..

i can't seem to type fast anymore :\ ! why ah! i realised it when i logged on to iSketch (favourite destressing online game) and i can't seem to type the correct answer fast enough even though i know the answer!!!!! i also keep having typos :(

*

my hair very little la :(
why ah!
my dad's fault la. my mom has a lot of hair neh.
i can't wait for it to grow out longer so i can perm it to give it some.. body! :D

*

i keep forgetting to put moisturiser before i sleep! my skin is now so sensitive and so dry that whenever i squat to pick up something random from the floor, my skin stretches but has no elasticity so it's painful! or itchy. ROAR. tonight! must remember tonight!

*

har har! bought new detergent!
and a nice smelling one too, at that! the previous one was like eco-friendly, biodegradable and all that shuhzzam, but not nice smell one! so this time i bought a purple coloured one (so i assumed smell like lavender or something), and on the packaging said it's 2x more concentrated than any normal detergent so i bought it. because i'm moving out in may so i dowan to lug it with me ma..

but the joke's on me again cos it doesn't smell all that much nicer cheh.

*

oh yea my new fluffy pillow :D


see how B I G and fluffy it is??? hee hee. the one behind it is the normal pillow i've been sleeping on and the one in front of it (with the old old cina aunty pillowcase) is my baby bantal with the name... uh. hahahah. dowan say la. so kiddy. but it's followed me EVERYWHERE since i was 8 and i'm not about to leave it anywhere else.

it will follow me into marriage!

*

i've been eating mangoes :)
yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
and tomyam
yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm



*

oklah sien i go watch south park now
okbye

.

DOOOOOOOOOOOOM

DIE LA DIE

i woke up today with a hunger i've never felt before in my entire life.
ever.

it was the greatest physical pang i've ever experienced and once i got my ass out of the bed at THREE FREAKING PM i realised that enough is enough. i shall not lie and toss and turn around in my bed under my fluffy sheets with the company of my baby pillow and newly bought FLUFFY wuffy pillow and slip into dreamland with the comforts of softness and wonder...

so i got up and made breakfast.

niama you know what i ate ah?

easily 10pcs of wafer thin ham
one fried egg
one big bowl of tomato cream soup
4 pieces of toast with sunflower spread
one chocolate muffin (this one still eating now)

HOLY COWWWWWWWWWW
thats alot loh! and i toasted the extra 2 pieces of toast (i initially only made 2 pieces) because there was alot of tomato soup left and i thought "why waste it all without dipping it in bread??" so i happily went out to toast another 2 pieces and grabbed a muffin along with me into my room.

DIE LA DIE.
summore sleep so much.

i have 4 more long chapters to slog over before the exam on monday :'(
someone saaaaaaaaaave me :(
i don't really have an interest in learning about WHY children have certain ways of moving and how they slowly develop the ability to grasp things... the book even requires us to remember the TYPES of grips babies have! i mean!!! babies just hold things la! they want then they want la!

heeyor :\
i know it's for the greater good.. but seriously.
the TYPES of grips???

*rolls eyes*

Happy Valentine's Day..

solely to celebrate LOVE! :)

what more Love from God above who gave His Son unconditionally for the sake of you and me both 2000 years ago so that we as children of His may live freely and abundantly in the Love that He first gave :) joyful, joyful :)

a day to commemorate an abstract idea called Love, and a day to celebrate Love with all whom you love! it's not about the dresses or the chocolates or flowers.. or the fancy dinner dates long and early planned out.. neither is it about having "quiet couple time" to bask in each other's presence..

it's about celebrating the ability to LOVE because He first loved us with ALL His heart- His beating, aching, living Heart :)

so yes :) today- be the day to celebrate Love.

Happy Valentine's Day to all you lovelies :)

BenjaminShane :)

so hemshem horrrr :)

one year ago... also on your bday :)

you don't bother with blogs, but you occasionally do with your own.. and you probably won't read this, but i want you to know that you have been almost the only real friend that i could relate to at any time of day or night :)

you're brash, yet rational (soooooooometimes).
witty and always on edge.

real proud to have seen you GROW from that SUPER DUPER annoying, childish, notty and mischievous brat to this...

THIS:

O.o??
and constantly confusing me! -_-

actually....
never change much hor? :D

hehehe :) still,
blessed birthday, small fry :)

love,
Keshia JieJie

5 A.M.

the birds are chirping at this hour.

and i'm up at THIS hour.

i finished studying 3 hours ago.

i just ate my dinner 2 hours ago.

i feel like reading some more.. FEEL.

it's freezing outside.

tesco is still open.

i might want to watch the sunrise.

i have a fluffy new pillow.

BIG fluffy pillow :)

i'm going to sleep on it now.

goodnightfolks :)

xx

Home.

... let me go home.


it's the Chinese New Year and i've never pined for home more than this before :(
i want my melaka
i want my popo and kong kong
i want my ahyees
i want baby kai xuan and baby cassie
i want my mamah
i want my mom and dad
i want my brother
i want my cousins
i want the hot hot terrible weather
i want the dusty old flat
i want the yucky moldy toilet
i want the tight small kitchen
i want the cooling marble floor
i want the crazy gila shyiok food
i want my yee kiao
i want my family

i want home :(

Singing, Throat and Snoring

i've been fooling around with my webcam ever since joanne sent me her video of a short play of her newly written song. catching up with her felt really good :) forgot how it felt like to be able to connect with my co-singer :)

her vibrato's fully developed already and i feel so left behind :(
i'm not destined to have one :(
booooo.

i don't know why, but i've always deemed a singer as 'a singer' if she/he can hold a real vibrato. why? because that means they're REALLY singing from the diaphragm! as in, the driving force is from there! and it sounds really nice also la :( i feel very sad one, when i see youtube videos of celine dion/whitney houston because they are just SO good la :(

and my latest fixation is on tenors :D
i just found a real love and passion for singers like.. Pavarotti hehehe..
and yeah blah dee blah blah you are not interested.

back to vibrato... i only have a slight one :\
that comes out WHEN IT FEELS LIKE IT.
my throat has a problem i tell you.

speaking of throat :(
i've been having REALLY BAD snoring problems :(

how do i know, do you ask?

well... because IT WAKES ME UP!
my own snoring wakes me up omg, i'm a gone case la! :( that's pretty bad right! i go to bed under my fluffy duvet and then as my cheeks brush against the soft and cold texture of my pillowcase, i gently and delicately fall into a sweet slumber..
but only to be awakened by MY OWN SNORING!!!!
potong stim anot you tell me T.T

ok truth is, i haven't ALWAYS snored. i never did at home!!!! so i can only conclude that it is the air here >( really one! tsk!!!!!!! it's dry and.. cold? :\

but in the mean time, are there any cures/remedies for it? like you know.. any home recipe remedies? i kinda know the reason why la.. it's because i have this semi-permanent phlegm/nose stuck thingy at the back of my throat... and when i fall asleep and all my muscles relax, the air that travels through my nose/trachea/larynx (whichever) is just... blocked by the stuff that's at the back of my throat?

save meeeeeeeeeeeee :(
i don't wanna have disrupted sleep like that :(


oh yea, the stuff i did with my webcam:
here*


it's so cool the way we chinese celebrate for 15 days straight!
so i can still you wish you happy chinese new year :D

xx

CNYE Dinner

Dinner at Four Seasons last night :)
managed to waste my time compiling pictures and photoshopping them! :)

Here: My Chinese New Year's Eve!

Transport for London

On the Piccadilly line straight to Leicester Sq

Chinatown!

looky all the red!!!! :D and the amount of PEOPLE
Crushing!
Ambience in Four Seasons:)
Bustling and clinking and clanking :) Typical chinese restaurant :)

A few of the lovelies that were there :)
FOOOOOOOD <3>

In a chinese grocer :)
KOPIKO AND RABBIT SWEET!!! :D
but so spensive T.T

Boring pictures of London you've probably seem one million times :\

Ah Foongkerbell bringing me to buy sweets! :D :D :D :D
I was so happy in there *teary eyes* Everything was 99p/100g!!!!!!
I couldn't make up my mind as to what I wanted!!!! But in the end I went home 1.30 pounds poorer :)

Full tummy, lighter purse, melted make up.
After a long day + night :)
also, fatty cheeks and fatty bombom already la I know -_- CNY maaaa :(

xx

GEEK!

*click to enlarge :)

which one are you? :)
i'm most definitely tv geek HEEHEE!

hope ya'll are havin a good new year's collecting ANGPOWS! :)

Happy Chinese New Year :)

happy chinese new year ya'll :)
don't forget yr parents and grandparents k?

The Season of Lent...

... what will you be giving up?

i thought long (kinda) and hard (sorta) about what i wanted to give up during this period and came up with almost nothing.

why nothing?

well firstly... i don't have much. all i have are my hot showers, my pillow, the internet, my food and... and... yeah. that's it.

i can't give up hot showers -_- i mean that'd be stupid.
i sleep with my pillow lah!!!!
i neeeeeeeeed the internet for checking mail (uni stuff), talking to parents all that.
if i gave up food it'll mean giving up one meal, and this means i'll only HAVE one meal left.

so i thought deeper and harder...
and i've come to a decision!

i'm giving up dlisted or any sort of tabloid websites!
why? because i find myself clicking on it every 2 hours (sometimes less) to read what's going on!!!!!! and although i'm not as addicted to it as i was LAST YEAR (i also gave dlisted up for Lent last year), i think i should lay off it a while. it takes up quite alot of time! time that i can use to STUDY (ho ho ho*)

oh and another thing i'm giving up is shopping.
not that i shop alot.. but i just looooooooooove it la T.T.
BUT the thing is.. Lent starts tmrw, and coincidentally, i'm going to shop for CNY clothes tmrw as well!!!!

rarh.

but i think it's kinda excusable.
i think.
dunno la. but i won't shop anymore after that! i promise!! so whether or not this is considered a "sacrifice", i don't know. since i'm breaking my lent sacrifice on the FIRST day? hmmmmmmm...!!

to be frank, both of the things that i plan to "sacrifice" just doesn't seem "awesome" enough (to me) to be counted as a sacrifice. but when i don't have any luxuries around me, there's just nothing to give up sorta thing?

so i'm making a few things up as well.
instead of GIVING SOMETHING UP,
i'll... TAKE SOMETHING IN.

in this case.. it will be going for EVERY CLASS on monday for the next 40 days!
ROAR! this was a terribly tough thing to decide because i really CANNOT tahan to go for ALL classes on monday loh! some of you know how often and when i go for class hor :) all together in the span of 4 month's worth of classes... i've only been for all full 4 classes in a day for 3 times.

siao or not you tell me!

so for Lent i'm going to bertaubat and go for ALL classes. EVERY single class from 10am right up till 5pm! *constipated face*

shopping

dlisted

my lazy time

ALL FOR GOD :D
it's going to be totally worth it :)

Take A Look At Yourself!

... before talking so much!


i say that because yesterday, when i was browsing through blogs, i came across this person's word space, and saw that she wasn't any "normal" girl. i'm not trying to be stupid or condescending, but yeah this girl was fat. it sounds so mean and degrading, but i cannot find another word. maybe overtly chubby might suit, but i still think it sounds very off.

anyway,

yea this girl wasn't your average size 8 (is that even average these days? or has it shrunk to 6??). She was a large girl but with long thinning hair. she wouldn't make me look twice at her la that kinda thing, and i didn't go on to judge her, but i never would have assumed that she would have a boyfriend.

i know this because she refers to him as "baby" and darling and all that other sugary mush gooey gunk you girls call your boyfriends. so i went to see her older archives to see what kinda guy she has la. NOTE: i didn't go to compare notes la.. i just went to see how the couple is like.

to my surprise, he was a skinny boy. average looking and you know. average chinese boy lah. but if anyone will know, chinese boys don't usually go for fat girls. they even call them pork chops! i mean, that's pretty degrading and non-rational la if you ask me cos i think pork chops are damn yummy and why wouldn't anyone NOT want pork chops!!?

again, anyway...

i sent poon the link la. and i told him to go see it cos it's really interesting that that girl has a boyfriend like that! he then asked me "like what?". i just told him that it was not very likely la... a totally unlikely couple. then he paused and asked...

"why? because she very fat ah?"
"well... yeah, because i thought guys don't like fat girls mah.. i'm just saying unlikely couple la"
"yeah we also what"

O.o

hehehe. yea hor.
we also what.

i'm the taller and darker one in the relationship
so unlikely also.

^
see?

people will usually say about us
"girls don't usually like shorter guys"
and i would agree to that!

"either she has a lot of money or he genuinely loves her"
"he buys stuff for her one wor.."
"so he genuinely loves her la"

and people will usually say about us
"either he has a lot of money or she genuinely loves him"

yeah so i learnt my lesson. i won't simply go and say "ew that's such an ugly couple", unless we are talking about neo and trinity (urgh); because i have an unusual boyfriend who has an unusual girlfriend.


either i'm rich or he's rich lah. which neither is true so i guess it must be love :D heee :)

What I Like To Do.

Hi. She was born on the 27th August in 1987. This makes her an 80's baby. Her parents named her Keshia because it is a conjoined version of each of their names. Her mother's surname is Shia, and since her mother calls her father Ken, they initially named her Kenshia. After some thinking, Kenshia sounded a little bit funny so they decided to take off the 'n' and stick with Keshia. They thought it would be a nice name since there are already a few superstars in the United States of America with the same name. Although so, her name is essentially a joint name of both her parents.

She grew up in Johor although was born in SJMC. She spent most of her childhood playing alone because she didn't have any siblings. She spoke fluent mandarin as a child and her best friend's name was Teng Teng. Teng Teng's mother was an evil monster. Seeing that she played mostly alone, Teng Teng's mother always stared at her from her bedroom window. One day, when little Keshia was playing badminton all by herself, the shuttle cock flew into Teng Teng's house compound. Teng Teng was not at home so she had to ring the bell to ask Teng Teng's mother to open the gate for her to take the shuttle cock. Even when she rang the doorbell, Teng Teng's mother refused to open the gate. She told Keshia to reach in with her hands to grab it. Obviously it was in vain because she was young and had short hands.

When she turned 4 years old, her mother was pregnant. Her parents told her she was going to have a baby brother but didn't really care because she didn't really know what it meant. When Kenny, the brother was born, she thought of him as an ugly old man. Truly he was. Only, he was a baby. she didn't really like her brother but he was alright. The real reason why her parents even had another child was because Keshia started talking to the mirror. This worried her parents much and made them contemplate on giving her a sibling. The truth is, Keshia was playing make believe like all the characters in Disney was telling her to. How misunderstood her actions were!

The family moved to KL when she started Kindergarten. She attended this place called Aladdin. You would assume that everything in the kindergarten was filled with pictures and cartoon characters from the Disney show "Aladdin", and you would be right. Her first best friend was an Indian boy named Velman and her first boyfriend was a Chinese boy named Eric. Her first enemy was a pompous little girl who threatened the "friendship" with a big piece of yucky ginger.

She grew up in Damansara Jaya for most of her life and attended primary and secondary school in that suburban area as well. Her best friend was a girl from Kuching and was the closest to her from year six till secondary 5. Primary school was much of a blur. The girl had a crush on the same malay boy for 5 years and watched him collect girlfriends. She, Keshia was a fat and dark little girl who got into lots of trouble in primary school- hence, the lack of memory because she repressed it.

Secondary school was also a blur. She then took fancy 3 different guys in the span of 5 years. She was a very horrible science student and never did well in her final 2 years of secondary school. She struggled her way through O Levels but managed to come out of it alive and kicking. She never wore a pinafore to school because it was uncomfortable and she was fat. The sides of the belt would cut into her tummy, revealing a very unflattering bulge. She was almost all the time clad in her baju kurung and refused to conform to the plastic ways of the DJGirls. CF SMKDJ was her sanity refuge even though everybody there was a tad bit retarded (this includes herself). Although one may argue that being in a retarded social group in secondary school would be social suicide, this retarded social group made her who she is today- still pretty retarded.

She graduated from secondary school and had her first weird non-existence relationship with a younger boy. It was terrible, unnerving and thrilling at the same time. She did things she didn't normally do. She felt things she didn't normally feel. She went through highs and lows for that boy but never knew the reason why, and never had the assurance that there would be a reason why at the end of it. Nobody knew about the relationship. Nobody would understand. She kept her apparent joys to herself but suffered and cried every night for a year and a half over it. She, until this day does not know what she was crying about. The relationship ended very abruptly when something drastic happened that threw her into a different zone. She felt thwarted in the wrong direction for over half a year, but still made herself comfortable till daylight came and made it out alive. She lost a whole lot of weight in the process too!

Days and months passed and she started changing her outlook. She walked out on some people, and some people walked out on her. She began to mix and fold into society's norm and began to realise that there was definitely more to life than just the obligations of relationships. She had great fun showing off people who troubled and threatened her, and had even more fun gaining the prize from the run off. She cut herself off certain people and let it hurt and let whatever it was heal before addressing again. Life was good. Partying, staying out late and having lots of boozing sessions till the wee hours of the morning was the life of all her classmates. She was the mother. Mother Kan, mother Kan.





wow!
my life is so boring.
look- it's all summarized here.
HAHA.

yawn.
the gruelling starts tmrw.
T.T

ps: my lights pao! and now one is flickering and the other is buzzing!
i can harmonize with the buzzing light!
how cool is that!!!! :D

ITS GOING TO SNOW REALLY HEAVILY TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



BBC- better be correct wtf -_-
i really want to see heavy snow loh! :D